Mother

Mother
When u was here.. All this bad thoughts never surpassed me.
But now, it's not just about being hunted by a bad thoughts only.. Now i've become worse than before.
Worse than yesterday. Becoming more & more worsen.
I wonder when will i can breathe without feeling a burden in my chest? Lately i fight my monster using a sword. I know i should not draw my sword. But mother, i just wanted to protect myself from my inner monster. And reborn. Yet, now i have stopped on believing in hope. I've been living aimlessly.