How will I survive tomorrow?
And the day after?
What about the day after that?
Is this how I must live?
For the rest of my life?
What must I do
To stop feeling these emotions?
Why does no one understand?
Why? Why? Why
I tried to scream,
But I once screamed and they thought I'm weak
I once hold their hands,
And life never went easy
I don't deserve them
If they knew what they said will go straight into my head, will they even care?
I had a dream
Of attempted suicide many times.
And every each of the dream,
I didn't die. I can't die. But I want to die.
Don't wanna lie,
This life is all about God
Not me, not you.
We're hopelessly blinded by God
Bcos that's how God created us, human
I want to die in God's hand if possible
But this pain and darkness keep eating me wholly
If I knew that I'd suffer,
Will I ask God to create me?
If I can't make it,
Will God toss me to hell
And blamed me,
It's my fault for being like this?
