So now, I'm holding this pain

Like the day I abandoned everything

Everyday it hurts even more

But it doesnt matter anymore..

I dont know anymore.. i attempted suicide again but... haha.. i guess i feel guilty n afraid of god. Like... maybe i should let myself suffering than hurting god.. but if i'm broken again, everyday, every moment.. i wont tolerate anymore.. i'll just keep attempt suicide until i suffered n cannot bear n maybe die pls... tq bye