僕は誰?その疑問がカラダの中
を駆け巡るどうして?
僕が僕であるのが不思議で
不思議なことが不思議で...
見渡す限りの違和感を抱いて
脈を感じることしかできぬ
僕は誰?
その疑問がカラダの中
を駆け巡るのどうして?
生きているの?僕はここで...
遠くで聞こえる...
僕の曖昧な意識の中で
鼓動だけが気味が悪く
白に染まる現実が刻々と消えてゆく...
ここは...?
誰に僕、生かされてるの?
僕自身が生きているのかわからない
答えなど出るはずもなく...
ねぇ?ここは何処で僕は誰
で貴方達は誰だっけ?
悲しさも苦しささえないの...
あぁ眠りについたらどうかこのまま
瞳を開くことの無いように
I don’t know, I don’t know.
In the end, the “others” will always be the others,
no matter how much we try to understand each other, that is so impossible,
but even so, for some reason, we hate solitude and midway
we create something we can call “friend”.
Even though I just want to be in peace,
I hurt and got hurt.
I don’t know, I don’t know,
I really don’t know anymore!
Is it just a name? Or a hobby? You
don’t even exist.
Overflowing
drop by drop,
for some reason,
we all know
sadness and solitude.
It just makes me wanting to hear gentle sounds,
I want to vomit out all the bad things.
Even though I just want to be in peace,
I got tired.
Goodnight
I touched and matured and got bigger and overcome and danced and burned and healed and got intoxicated
and then I wavered, melted, fell, got smaller, vanished, showing off my bravery…
I don’t know, I don’t know,
I really don’t know anymore!
Is it just a name? Or a hobby? You
don’t even exist.
Overflowing
drop by drop,
for some reason,
we all know
sadness and solitude.
Goodnight.
どっかから現れた
感情がそこに居て
ちょっとずつ大きくなる
見ない見えないぶりじた
誰にも言えないで
それは秘密になった
きっとそっちの方が
良いはずだて
ああ 僕が僕じゃなければ
よかった
叶わないと知ってる
それでも側にいたい
視線だけは許して
こんなにも近いのに
触れたら壊れるから
だから僕は
マザレナイ
きっとこのままで
一人きり泣いている
あなたは無邪気にそこで笑って
ずっと知っているから
その視線の向きなら
交わらない事も
知っているのに
ああ 息が苦しくなって
騒いだ
叶わないと知ってる
それでも側にいたい
視線だけは許して
何も言わずにれは
離れる事はないと
分かるのにね
ワカラナイ
近づいたって 触れたって
思い伝えたって
どうしようも出来なくて
黒は黒
白は白
擦り切れ切った感情が
壊してしまいそう
我に帰って また今日も
僕は隠れて泣いてる
どっかから現れた
感情が僕だ
叶わないと知ってる
それでも側に居たい
視線だけは許して
こんなにも近いのに
触れたら壊れるから
だから僕は
マザレナイと知ってて
マザレナイのならもう
こんな僕にさよなら
こんな日々にさよなら
どうせ僕ら
マザレナイ
The beginning of all the disgraces
was that day, that time, in that place.
I was hurt and couldn’t walk,
you pulled my hand.
But if I think about it,
there was something a bit unnatural.
Even so, for some reason, I didn’t doubt you
and I just followed you.
Come on, over here,
off the cliff!
Close your eyes,
you should jump off!
The drowning me
goes deeper, deeper, deeper.
Your sweet trap
pierces my throat.
I can’t breath,
I can’t let out my voice.
You are a bad person,
you are sinking me.
Come on, queitly
if you entrust yourself to me,
you will be fine,
everything will be.
I don’t want to drown,
I struggle, struggle and struggle.
I grasp your hand for help,
toward the light.
My strength isn’t enough,
even though it’s so close…
I sink once again
at your feet.
Emptiness Illusion Drowning
Don’t come near me! Don’t touch me! Leave me alone!
I’m bad! I’m bad! I’m bad!
Enough! Stop! Don’t come!
I’m bad! I’m bad! I’m bad!
With a skilful crime
you grab me,
you are so gentle,
to the point that you hurt me.
The drowning me
goes deeper, deeper, deeper.
Your sweet trap
pierces my throat.
I can’t breath,
I can’t let out my voice.
You are a bad person,
you are sinking me.
Some people fool the others and always smile
Some people are fooled and always cry
The big city is cold and when the draft wind blows
someone’s warmth f l i e s off.
I’m about to explode, in this town full of lies
I don’t understand anything anymore.
Still, yes, I end up believing in it
and so I end up betrayed once again.
He looked like such a nice person, that elderly as well, right?
Someone said he got arrested for fraud.
I’m about to explode, this town full of lies
laughs at the fact that someone is crying.
If you are fine, then it’s fine,
filthy human beings.
I give up on the world, I give up on the people,
I’m the kind of person who’s too honest and end up looking like an idiot.
It would be just fine if I turned into something outside humans, fool and stupid.
One day, you offered me your hand
and said “It’s fine, you're not alone anymore”
to hurt and exhausted me
while grinning.
I’m about to explode, in this town full of lies
I don’t understand anything anymore.
Still, yes, I end up believing in it
and so I end up betrayed once again, but that’s fine.
If I stayed on my own I wouldn’t be hurt,
I should only believe in myself,
even so, yes, even so, if it’s you,
it’s fine even if I get betrayed.
「5」「4」「3」「2」「1」「0」
The sound of the second hand resonates
it makes silence more silent
time to go to bed?
it's a cold night after all
it's snowing outside the window
loneliness keeps pilling up
where did you go?
just thinking about you
my chest tightens
(for numberless times)
(for numberless times)
i've tried to forget you, yet
time merely goes by
memories of you stay
it's so painful, so sorrowful
my feeling are about to freeze
take them away with you, oh
whenever i talk to you, you're always absent-minded
you always apologize right away, but you never look at me
it's incredible that that's how we got together
despite plenty of reasons to leave you
without saying anything,you stop coming home
i knew how little i know you
these words will never reach you
they'll dance in the sky
they'll blend with someone's sigh and fly to somewhere distant
they're gone
my pure white feeling lose their warmth
please touch me with your warm finger
please show me your gentle smile
even now i'm about to collapse, oh
i hear the door open and a familiar voice speak to me
your arms tenderly surround me
please always be by my side like this; please don't leave me again
nowhere else but here it the only place i belong
please don't take it away, oh
the sound of the second hand wakes me
you're gone again...
